Creating a BPD playlist? These are some songs that pinpoint how living with borderline personality disorder feels. From songs about BPD favorite person to songs that portray BPD mood swings, the following list covers it all.
9 Songs About Borderline Personality Disorder
1. Liability By Lorde
“They say, “You’re a little much for me
You’re a liability
You’re a little much for me”
So they pull back, make other plans
I understand, I’m a liability
Get you wild, make you leave
I’m a little much for
E-a-na-na-na, everyone”
If you have borderline personality disorder you’ve probably been told that you’re “too much” before. Our intense fear of abandonment and extreme black-and-white thinking can make relationships with us very complicated. We are often told by others that we are a burden because of symptoms that are out of our control. This song perfectly expresses how it feels to be treated as a liability.
2. I Hate You, Don’t Leave Me By Demi Lovato
“I hate you, don’t leave me
I feel like I can’t breathe
Just hold me, don’t touch me
And I want you to love me
But I need you to trust me
Stay with me, set me free”
This is one of the most accurate songs out there about BPD relationships and splitting. You go from hating the person to loving them. Feel as though you need time alone but you need them next to you. You don’t actually know what you want.
3. Medicine By Daughter
“Pick it up, pick it all up
And start again
You’ve got a second chance, you could go home
Escape it all, it’s just irrelevant
It’s just medicine
It’s just medicine”
This song has been my bpd anthem for years now. It addresses subjects such as addiction and the lyrics really make me feel seen when it comes to my struggles with self-harm. It also resonates with the feeling of starting over after relapsing and wanting to crawl back into bad habits.
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4. Numb By Linkin Park
“I’ve become so numb, I can’t feel you there
Become so tired, so much more aware
I’m becoming this, all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you“
One of the main criteria for getting diagnosed is chronic feelings of emptiness. This bpd song demonstrates emptiness and feeling numb. I also identify with it because of the desire to be yourself without trying to please anyone else, which is difficult to do with the lack of sense of identity that comes with borderline personality disorder.
5. Mad World By Gary Jules
“And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I’m dying
Are the best I’ve ever had“
Many people with personality disorders struggle with suicidal ideation and this song really makes me feel seen. Sometimes dying is the only fantasy that comes to mind when struggling. Something about this song also makes me feel like I’m floating, kind of like in a dissociative state. The way it describes the world around us really resonates with how I see things when my feelings start disconnecting and I become distant from the world around me.
6. Cry Baby By Melanie Marinez
“You seem to replace your brain with your heart
You take things so hard and then you fall apart
You try to explain, but before you can start
Those cry baby tears come out of the dark/You’re all on your own and you lost all your friends
You told yourself that it’s not you, it’s them
You’re one of a kind and no one understands
But those cry baby tears keep coming back again”
Many of Melanie’s songs tackle different mental health issues brilliantly, and when it comes to borderline personality disorder songs I feel this is her most accurate one. BPD often comes with high levels of sensitivity and generally, those around us have a hard time understanding and accommodating our emotional needs. As a child I recall being called a “cry-baby” on a regular basis and trying, with a lack of success, to hold in my emotions.
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7. In The Blood By John Mayer
“How much of my mother has my mother left in me?
How much of my love will be insane to some degree?
And what about this feeling that I’m never good enough?
Will it wash out in the water, or is it always in the blood?”
This song explains the fear that you’ll never be more than your flawed genetics and upbringing. With mental illnesses, you never know how much control you truly have over your recovery and how much is just “in the blood”.
8. Breathe Me By Sia
“Ouch, I have lost myself again
Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found
Yeah I think that I might break
Lost myself again and I feel unsafe”
I listen to this song after every relapse or setback. When you struggle with a personality disorder instability is inevitable. You constantly feel as though you’re going back and forth and fear that you’ve reached your breaking point.
9. Monster By Skillet
“The secret side of me I never let you see
I keep it caged but I can’t control it
So stay away from me, the beast is ugly
I feel the rage and I just can’t hold it
It’s scratching on the walls, in the closet, in the halls”
This song accurately describes BPD rage. You try to contain yourself and hold “the beast” inside but at some point it all becomes too much and you explode. The intensity of your emotions takes over and you lose control. It not only scares and tears us apart but also has tremendous consequences for those around us.
What songs about personality disorders did I miss?
Let me know in the comments so I can add them to my playlist:)
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