I feel like my bpd has become so intense I can’t handle it. I feel obsessive and alone and like nobody gets how hard it can be sometimes. I do my best to work on myself and be as healthy as I can but some things are impossible. I get triggered so often and feel like an emotional reck. I’m so tired of going from one extreme to another or feeling completely numb and knowing nothing can fill the void. I don’t think people understand the extent to which this disorder effects literally everything. I’m not purposely annoying or toxic.I don’t mean to shut down or react emotionally I just truly feel so deeply and I can’t control it. I feel as though everyone around me has lost patience for me. I’m not that bad but it’s just really hard and really lonely. I just wish someone would get it. I want a hug.